Rana

I am Rana, and every word I say is manipulation. I am Rana, and my every move, my every thought, is deceit, guile, subterfuge. But of course... not for you. I am Rana, rider of Nauglug! I am one of the Lord Gholans closest generals and advisors, and I am first among elves. I was advisor to Silcandril the White, and the elves say I betrayed them all.

Such foolishness.

It is not betrayal, never was. It was and is a complete refusal to live half-way, to deny myself, to close my eyes to our nature and to smother myself. To pretend to be less than we are... why do they still do it? Even now, after I have returned to life, after seven hundred years. But my legend lives on still.

Those few elves that have woken up... they are few, indeed, yes, but out of them, I like to believe most have understood the only way to go, and they have come to me. We are forming a slowly growing group. In Margholien, where we do not have to deny ourselves, and where magic is stronger.

I am proud to say that during the course of a mere day, I have helped yet another one see all this, and we are now one more that will not smother herself, will not strive to be less than she is, all because of outdated and fearful notions of... well, fear of actually accomplishing something.

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So, yes, playing Rana, the original sinner and first one to ever turn to Gholan, went well. It was appreciated and I was admired. I'm very happy, it felt like a big mantle to take on and big shoes to fill. But, apparently, I did it!
It wouldn't have been anywhere near even half as fun without Morigail around, though, portrayed by LittleSir. Damn, but we make a fine pair of elves, no matter what sort we portray!
People said afterwards how we were perfect, and just how they had envisioned us. How I hit the nail spot on with my acting (though I prefer the term "being"). I had a lot of fun, and even when bored, could find things to amuse me. I'm used to that by now, being proactive. And it worked fairly well, though it was tempered by a bit of occasional frustration. Oh, and... magicians. Urghk. Always trying to be the most important, having the most important ritual and generally not caring how many they are and how much they upset and disturb, for example, dinner. Bother on ye all.

It was all in all a lot of fun. I enjoyed looking and being so different from the elves I usually portray. I like to think we added something to the general mythology and "science" related to elves in the campaign world of Thule.

There were a lot of people who really made me Rana. I mean, I can playact and be all I like, but unless people react to that in the right way, and do things that reaffirm it, it's useless. They did, though; reaffirm me/Rana with their actions and words. So despite the somewhat less than ultimate venue, it was actually a good lrp. FAR better than I expected beforehand. With lots of good lrpers and good mini-events throughout. And I enjoyed creeping people out by simple virtue of being her.

Thanks to those who made it a good event. "Den Svarta Nyckeln" ("The Black Key") really twisted my perceptions on the Thule campaign, in a good and interesting way. We're not evil. We're not "the other side". We are.
And I am Rana.