Malina

... means "yellow" in Quenya.

I managed to take a short visit to home, before work and practice for the upcoming National Championships made me decide to stay in this stupid town until they were over. It was very nice, and very restful. I had good weather and me and Sludgecrawler managed to clear one stage in Dynasty Warriors 6 (the Musou mode) on "Chaos". Some of the characters are fairly high-level now, but we did a bit of a return to basics and ran one or two stages with lower-level ones - I think level twelve or something. Always nice to do that. For sure, Guan Yu, Zhou Yu and other favourites are fun to run around with, but, one likes one's diversity.

I have, of course, painted, and it's all on the other blog. I removed this one from a few search-functions, with the result that the visitor count has dropped a fair bit, but really, that's not why I write. Some of the things we've been required to paint have seemed near-impossible challenges at first, but with the help of Harry Potter audiobooks I've conquered them all! And had lots and lots of fun. I receive compliments, and not few, either, but most importantly, I'm happy, myself, with what I do. It's incredibly fulfilling.

Spring came suddenly and I don't mind its being here. In under a week there were big green leaves everywhere, and as I type this, I'm still happy over my discovery that there were late-blooming pink sakura across the road from one of the bus-stops I jump off at. It's been ridiculously warm at times, and I had a lovely day out with one of my sweethearts. In fact, I've had several lovely days out with my sweethearts, and some of them have been at the national park in Tyresta. I like going there, especially during weekdays, because there aren't that many out walking then.
Speaking of which, I'll be calling them A and E from now on, from Anar and elen which are Quenya and mean "the Sun" and "star".
Last time I went to Tyresta, me and A actually took off our shoes and sat with them in the water for a while. It was cool, but not icy cold. And we saw several snakes, one that was swimming, even. This stands in stark contrast to another day, about a week earlier, when snow decided to intrude upon the month of May. SNOW. And not just snow a little, no, it stayed on the ground! Still, snow-covered sakura (that is, cherry flowers) is very beautiful.

Easter was uneventful - I worked, and that was about it. It wasn't unpleasant, though, and I had lovely skärgårdssill (a sort of pickled fish) and that felt quite Easter-y enough. Easter, Eostre, Ostara... I also attended the Stockholm by Night lrp, which was enjoyable in that angsty, VtM-sort of way. Though that night had nothing on the next one. Poor Karen, I almost feel sorry for her. She really had a very, very bad week, that ended even worse. The Prince of the city liked her... but not in the social way. An old acquaintance that she'd rather not ever met again came to visit, and justice was done with the help of his hand. Justice, after torturing a poor mindscrewed Gangrel, who could, really, if one had seen things from a different angle, been considered innocent.
The after-lrp hangout was great, too. "You're really in love with him, aren't you? You're shining." said a friend, when we were talking about one of my sweethearts. She's quite right, of course. I am, with both.

Sometimes, having more than one love-relationship is really great. At other times, it's twice the discomfort and pain. There have been issues between me and both of my sweethearts, regarding this and that, and I'm beginning to work them out from my side, but of course there's always going to be things. And sometimes it's almost unbearable. One is working out an issue with A, and would love to turn to Is, but there are issues there too, so one is just stuck with two sweethearts whom one love dearly but can't turn to either for help.
Then, of course, when things are better, one can, and that's a really nice thing. A really helped out by asking me a tricky question, that made me think twice about something that was up between me and Is. And E tends to be able to point me in the right direction for what I need to think about with A. Very good, that.

I got the question, "So, he's your third, then?" about someone. Nope, definitely not. A friend I don't mind making out with, for sure, but, I'm certainly not looking for anyone else at the moment. Not actively, and not passively. If something happens, sure. But I doubt it. I'm very happy with my E and A, and I barely have time to meet even them, as it is...
There was a Tumblr post a while back, about someone saying how they were a bad representative of their sexuality. S/he was bi and polyamorous (and don't get me started on the mix-up of Latin and Greek - I know full well). I could only nod and agree. One already has to put up with the stereotyped idea that bi/pan/anything-other-than-monosexuals are merely promiscuous and unfaithful degenerate sluts. And then along comes those of us who, regardless of whether these things are by choice or not (I vote "not"), fall in love with more than one person at the same time. There are those of non-monosexuality (in this I include the so often considered two exact and unavoidable polarities of hetero- and homosexuality) who are very much the one-person-love-at-a-time type. Just as there are those who are monosexual and not.
But I'm not really doing "my kind" any favours, by falling into both these two much-bashed categories at the same time...

On another note, Gothenburgh is prettier by far than Stockholm this time of year! I loved it when the weather actually decided to be sunny - it's nice outside even when raining, but I took a walk with E when it was sunny and that was great. Being asked to teach in my old, and first, iaido club Shobukan was an honour, and felt a bit odd, but also good. And people seemed to appreciate it (well, most, anyway, and those that didn't will, I predict, either learn how a proper mind of iaido should be, or quit fairly soon) and have fun and feel that they progressed in their iai.

I also got the chance to meet the Trolls, all of them, which was nice, even if we didn't do anything but just hang out. A painting of Dunstaffnage Castle that I made, I gave away to Egladil, since I can't remember that I gave him something proper for his birthday and anyway, we went there together.
First proper painting (not counting my watercolours, though) that I give away like that.

All in all, time's been fairly good lately. A makes me smile withing ten seconds of him calling me up, and given that I love his smile, too, I tend to be in a good mood around him, and try to make him smile. So it was nice staying with him for most of the time in Gothenburg, and feels odd now not to be around him. And, for that matter, not have the opportunity just to nip over to E. One just took the bus or the tram!

Also, there's a ferry on Sunday evening. Sounds like a better idea than the morning one on Monday...