You've got a way

Because I figured maybe love is worth a shot, after all. Maybe I should keep the flame burning despite the waves of negativity, cynicism, disgust and hopelessness that sometimes wash over me.
Shania Twain - You've got a way
Also this one, since it gives the romantic fool in me a feeling that maybe, there is a love such as the one she sings about. And because Gillie sang this to Jadeite, one of the last times I played her. That was true love, if anything.
Shania Twain - From this moment

And this one? It is so delightfully gay, in both senses, and it just makes me twitch and dance and smile. It represents a very good memory, and it is rather catchy. I need something to cheer me up, and this is usually the one for that :) Maiya heee, maiya hooo, maia ha ha...
O-Zone - Dragosta din tei
Their other tunes are quite catchy, too.


It was good, practice. My arms are a bit wobbly from it, but I like it. No mind. Sucky though, that I can't do all the pushups, but I'm hoping the muscles (or whatever) will be better soon. I could do most other things! Ynera is satisfied for today.
Dreams from tonight still haunting me. Something is coming down, I think, I'm not sre but if it does I definitely know I will not like it.
*sigh* Thank gods Maur comes to visit tomorrow. Dear gods, we haven't seen eachother for so long, and I miss him so very much.
Aaaaand if anyone hadn't noticed most of my friends are male. Fuuuunny, huh? The close ones go even on female/male, I think, but the ratio of people living anywhere close makes the scales tip to the male side.
If you divide things by that.
I don't have many friends, either. Or acquaintances.

I did wash up most of the dishes, though! Good girl Elenaria.
Last for today if nothing else comes up - my darkest secret, shared with a certain metal/synth fan who shall remain blissfully unnamed. I like these guys. I like them so much I know all fo their songs and can sing them by heart, except for the last cd. And I plan on buying that. Here you go. It's not very good. Go for the song instead, and ignore the video
Ace of Base - Beautiful Life


Okay. Enough more ordinary music. Back to gothic and other stuff. "Out in the real world" is on for the rest of the evening, and so is Immie. Jaa ne.


[Edit half an hour later]
Fuck. I still hate him. HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATRED. Can't I just be allowed to let go? Why must I still be so bloody angry? I hate his guts his being his very existance I feel sick just thinking that the asshole still lives and apparently in Stockholm these days. He has no right to live. He does not deserve it. Oh, all the gods, I beseech you, give him what he deserves and give him back what he has done threefold.
And then maybe let me rest in bloody peace. Or at least never think about him again.