Head above the line

I don't like my moodswings. They are fucked-up and I really, really don't want them. I mess people up enough as it is. If I were alone and didn't have to bother about others, sure, but I am not and therefore feel the need to try and act... uh... behave... uh... nevermind. No whining, yesyes.

You give me warpstone I give you quick death yes yes?

You know, I could get used to this. Out in the daytime, a lesson or somesuch, some studies, wearing pretty clothes (though I wish I'd gone easy on my feet today, fucking left foot is bugging me again, gods I do not want another chronic pain they're such a bloody bother) and then get home, eat some and have friends come over, friends who are some semblance of "on" to the things we're doing.
There's a jab at someone here, but said person'll never read this because said person won't ever realize other people Have Feelings and Think, too, so nevermind.
It was such a surprise, a pleasant one, to hear the - "You want us to come over?" To hear the "Yeah, let's!" when I wanted to sew and make larping clothes. We've been doing it for three consecutive evenings now, although sometimes I wish we could start a bit earlier to avoid finishing so late, but then again, earlier I do other stuff and the sun shining in makes it a bit iffy to get the lightning right when cutting and stuff... Evenings and night-times are for hobbies! For creating. And it hasn't been any kind of a problem, this rhythm of awake and asleep that I have now. I'm always more creative in the evening and the nighttime. And the mornings. Always was a problem, that...

So here we are, three people, drawing, cutting, sewing, planning. Thinking, creating and drinking tea. The mood is mostly above the line, I get a creative boost, I can help out (I love feeling that I can help people, but I do so appreciate that the little Sir still does things her way, my bossyness can sometimes pop up and take hold at times when it'd be far better if it wasn't there) and we are THREE people that WANTS to do this! It's a bit tricky since I usually do everything myself because "I can, and I can do best", but now that the initial thinking, measuring and other tricky stuff is out of the way (on the hakama and the vests at least) I can delegate and try to not make a certain malkavian go nuts from boredom >.>

The hakama has almost all the pieces cut out and if I may say so, the back-piece (koshiita) was a success. Five layers of the material I used for my tent, and then sew sew sew with the machine and it got stiff as a boner! (Bad joke, sorry). There's no stress. There's just fun. I'm looking forward to when the little creative twists come around, they're bound to start popping up with even more frequency now. The vests are on hold for a while, I don't mind that, the hakama may take up as much time as they like, because the vests may be done real quick if that's necessary. And then, for the under-jacket and the underpants, and then... and then...

It's not all fun and games, but by now we've learnt to quit before we cut or sew too badly wrong.
Oooh, my engrish is vely good tonight, yes yes.
And once again I feel the urge to create a pair of poofy pants. The material of the cloth that LittleSir is using is just so shiny. I want to create clothes! I don't want to be hindered by petty things such as money or time or other things on the schedule. Also, no going to the special store tomorrow makes elfy wallet happier. Not the elf, though.

And we discuss larps and character creation and everyday life in the larp and stuff around it! Yay!

For tomorrow, I shall have to be a good elf and do some schoolwork, and then I will be a social elf and call der evil speilleiter from October's night, and there was a walk to be had with ze zombie and in the night wolf will come home, too.

I hope I can keep my head above the water. I may need it for the Easter. I need more hugs, seriously, and more time one-on-one with people whom you can just sit beside and talk about everything, nothing and be all silent.
It is time for bed or else I shall have a very stylish keyboard-makeup and honestly, I prefer my stuff from MakeUpStore in the face instead.

Let's keep the elfbitch's mood up, everyone. Please? And be creative, supportive, try to make all the positive stuff spill out over everyone else too!