Lómë

...means "night, twilight, gloom".

Dead tired which is good, takes the edge off the sharper parts.

Weekend can be summed up by: it went well, manager awesome, other staff members real nice, work was good, can get used to it, think it will go fine, can if I want work near-fulltime, need someplace to stay in the city which will be a bitch, people in general rather impressed by me.

Also, fell ill. Argharghargh. But with the help of father ibumetin, I made it through.

Had a brimstone-and-acid-moment, wrote it out of my system.

Then, things went to the proverbial hell in a handbasket. Of course now is the time to deal with shite, so I did. For about an hour or so, I suppose you could say I was single. It was a shitty, harrowing experience and it further confirmed to me, to us, that hey, no matter the really bad issues we have (he an unfeeling concrete wall, me a passionate creature who'd suffocate from choking the need for outlet), a future without the other one in it is unfathomable and completely out of the question. It just isn't a conceivable option.
So, I cried enough to last me half a year or so, and am still all exhausted. But it just didn't work, we saw no solution to our troubles but to break up, yet there was no way we could break up.
Back to where we were, in a way, yet some dust has been removed, some things have been mucked with.

I still need some way to be allowed to, well, let out all the raging feelings and passions and whatnot, and I have no idea on how to solve that. But at least we cleared that one thing, for now, we want eachother in eachother's lives for the remainder of them.

And today's been calm, tired, dinner with family (it was very, very nice, no bad things at all) and some friendly bashing of chinese, I mean it IS the Olympics so we're all friends, and believe me, Dynasty Warriors is a good way to become friends! Just not with your enemies. My favourite in 6 is definitely Sima Yi, so far. He's bloody awesome to play with. Since they ruined Sun Shang Xiang and pretty much Sun Ce too... Well, Sima Yi is great fun to play, and cool to boot. Plus, his weapons are awesome. Very Exalted, if nothing else.

We've also had a small pre-larp meeting for Oktoberskatt, things are proceeding nicely there.

Dead tired. And I need to catch up on the German studies.

Working Thursday to Sunday again. Need to decide what to do this autumn. Lots of things to be fixed either way. Argh. Sleep. Hello, bed.