Coming out

That was a bit like coming out to a mother or other parent who is convinced you might be wrong. "Are you sure you're not really into boys, after all? This might be some kind of medical condition. And it's not because of rebelling against your parents?"
But then, I was much like "I have a boyfriend, therefore I AM heterosexual... I must be."

Except in my case it was about "polyamory". No matter if it is good or bad in the relationship, I do fall in love with others. It doesn't in any way diminish my feelings for wolf, or change them. It's not like I have a limited amount of love.
But I've been saying that on and off, still not admitting or really letting myself believe. And then you look back and with a rotten feeling in your stomach realize you're about as deviant from the hetero-monogamy-blahblah-norm as you have been denying you are.
He knows, now. I think it bloody well sunk in this time, too. You know, things doesn't stick and especially not things he doesn't want to stick. He took it like I thought - see above. Not particularly good. Not with much of understanding. Not very happy. So, no big surprise for me there. At least I said it, though it doesn't make much neither better nor worse.

I'm not very old, in this life. It's pretty and a nice thought that there are those that meet and fall in love young and live all of the rest of their lives together and all. It was nice hoping and believing I might be one of them, but, I'm not.
Do I deny part of myself and keep living with wolf or do I deny part of myself and go out and fall in love with more than one person? Either or, or not? I don't think the choice will be made soon, in any ways, but it might be there, waiting.

No, in fact, I am rather young, as I count it. And I want to be able to walk down the street two boys in my hands. Or one boy one girl. Whichever is fine, really, as long as one of them is wolf.

It isn't a pretty situation, but here we are. At least I don't have to squirm and keep quiet anymore. The rest of what I want to say is still waiting, but the heaviest part is out. You can't believe it, but boy, I know that, and yet here I am, your girlfriend and all.