Only the beginning

Sounds optimistic, huh? 's not.

Managed to get up this morning and get Rand and Zombielicious to the ferry (Zomb's little kitten was sooo adorable it's silly). Then snuck into the university and printed out several Werewolf-, Changeling- and Vampire-character sheets. Sneakiness have abated now, but not by then.

So, where am I now?

Well, my balance is off so I'm rather confused and tend to make a lot of extra movements that are just... off. The thoughts take roads that are similarily strange and winding.
Yeah, you just had to place yourself there. Bastard.
Time to try out Werewolf: the Apocalypse for the first time ever. Apart from the mini-larps, and that was from the perspective of a Corax, I've no experience. I know the Corax book inside out, have a general if at times fuzzy idea about the werewolf tribes, and know about the cosmology and such. I hope this'll be fun. The trolls don't seem too keen, though Malk's told me he is rather curious about it. Oh well. I wonder what tribe I'll choose... honestly, none appeals to me in particular. But starting as a Corax might spoil some of the fun of discovering the world for the first time, as a 9-feet ball of fur.

Don't you just hate it, though, when people come to visit and for some reason the general feeling in the room just drops miles and miles and you just feel that "Eurgh, next time tell me if you don't really want to..."?


Looks good to you all, doesn't it? No one seems to have noticed. No one seems to have suspected anything. People still don't. People don't see what they don't want to see. Well, it's less painful that way. Easier.
For your information, it's not allright. Nothing is fine. But please, if it suits you, believe so. It's not like it's going to end with a big bang, at least, I still have an illusion of it not. I'd love to have the time to work on it some more, but I don't know where to start. Therefore, thanks to Asa who will probably help me out. Wednesday it is. And then we'll see if this ship can fly again.
I'm still rather young, you know. I need tighter relationship now and again, and less so now and again. But how do you break that to wolf, of all people? And still keep him by your side for the rest of your life?
It'll all turn out fine in the end. It always does, and I take comfort in that.

I like creating a character. It's enjoyable. I just...

It takes a lot... to be always on form...
It takes a lot.
I maybe not... all the time, all I've got...
Maybe not.

Been one of those days,
safety first, don't push... what's the hurry?
One nerve remaining, waiting on one look.... have you got it?
Have you got it in you?
Have you got it in you?